Happy Birthday

Elise!

i looooove youuuuu!! my twin soul! for show!! :D

DUDE so far last month went by sooo fast. it just proves how much you just have to savor each moment in life, cause you dont know when its gonna slip away. and i believe that. you dont know when things will happen, they just do. and its just a reason to make someone else stronger. so things happen for a better cause.. . -sigh-

ive just been inspired to write more poems.. based on this 'phase' im going through right now. i got some tips from my voice teacher's mom to really look into literature, and improve my lyrics. i agree. *thumbs up

i think i need glasses! o0o0o.... i saw some sheksi contacts.. i want the green ones! lol.. im not sure if my vision is 20/20. cause ever since i was on the computer like, the whole time, it ruined my eye sight. sort of. because the computer screen really burns your eyes. and ive been on like everyday. so thats a bummer... Grr. i dont want glasses! eek  x/ i still have to ask my madre.

y0, came back from school around 12 comething. went to mountain view, see some old faces, and teachers. waited with melinda for elise anney and jennifer to get movies, we walked home. i ended up not going to anneys. but STAYING here online, waiting for An to come online. that bastard! its already been almost 3 hours. stupid mofo! >=\ UN-cool.

ANYWAYS... i just got done watching the Wade Robson Project. anyone watch that? and this one asian girl, named 'Noreen' is really good! she fricken does 2 backflips in one. weird. haha.p/s go vote for her! haha

i left a countdown thingie up there til my bday. for you 'ALL' you people keeping track. hahahaha <3... 1 WISHLIST LOCATED BELOW x)

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Brief Analysis As Christine you seek change, travel, new opportunities, and new challenges. Your active, restless nature demands action and you dislike system and monotony. As you are versatile and capable, you could do any job well, although you would not like to do menial tasks. Having considerable vision, you could be adept at formulating new, more effective ways of doing things. You could organize the work of others, though in your impatience to see the job done efficiently, you would likely step right in and do it yourself. You could work well in sales and promotion, and would not be afraid to risk a gamble as the name gives you much self-confidence. You do not find contentment in the routine tasks and responsibilities that are associated with home and family or with administrative detail in the business world, so you have to guard against frustration and even moods of depression over your personal responsibilities. The restlessness this name creates could find an outlet in caustic, irritable expression.

Health Weaknesses Also, the intensity of your nature could result in tension in the solar plexus causing stomach trouble and, because you take your responsibilities seriously you could experience much worry.

  okay, that seemed true about me. but it was talking SMACK! the whole time eh? 

SCURRRRYY, aint it? eek!   x)

xtine's wishlist 5-star wishlist *clickable

( ) Anchor Blue Jean Chain W/ Rhinestone Star

( ) Little Twin Stars - Plush

( ) Little Twin Stars - Handbag

( ) Tilt - Heart Tiff II

( ) Strawberry Shortcake & Custard Cosmetic Bag

( ) Womens Converse Star Player EV - Grey/Pink.

( ) Neptunes Ft. The Clones CD

( ) Hollister Regional Champs Tee

( ) Wide Waist Band Corduroy Mini Skirt

( ) Denim Mini Skirt

( ) Hoody Sweater

(x) Catch Me If You Can - DVD

( ) The Matrix Reloaded - DVD

( ) Mr. An Nguyen

  ... 1<3

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Bye Bye Boyfriend - FeFe Dobson

hiya! i just found out im not failing so bad, im actually doing my work now, suprised?? very.. well today i passed out my invites. wo0pie! tomorrow and the day after is restruct. day. that means we start school at 8:22am and get out at 12 something. we first have periods 1,3,5 and the next day 2,4,6. we do this every month! what what!! hahais it me or do i just get the feeling sometimes at school someone is stalking me? i think its these 3 asian guys. cause they see me hang around jessica, and it jsut so happens her ex still gives her dirty looks, and let me just say right now for the record... HES FUGLY. gawd damn, im not trying to be judgemental or anything, its just a known fact, and he has these 2 other friends he hangs out with all the time, i see them sometimes. like they give me looks, and they think, and they might 'assume' im giving them the 'LOOK' but hell NO!! how do i know this? its just one of xtine's senses. its weird. Hm.. i hope people i invited from far away come, or at least have a ride, that means: d0nna and an. if you guys dont make it, it'll suck. haha! =D sheksiness=an. argh, let me check if i have homework. k late!.... 1 <3

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this wouldve been my good day, if someone hadnt IMed me and talk sh_t. ARGH that just brought me back to my crying days, when i was actually crying for a GUY. how pathetic i was before. i believed everything he said/actions. and it lead me to bigger probs.. well how it all started was when my cousin told me about her crush, which his cousin is the one i was 'supposed' to hook up with, but he had a girlfriend. so then we talked for like a month, before i went to go see my cousin in bellflower for a week. then i wasted all that time, just to be there, to see HIM.. when i couldve just spent time with my relatives, and had a good time, but i bothered my cousin all the time, saying how i like him, i want to meet him, etc. [im soo sorry michelle. i cant believe i didnt actually believe you, when you said, hes soooo gay, hes sooo ugly'] lol, anyways. and then his girlfriend found out i liked him, cause HE told her. [DUDE he totally mislead me, cause we flirted, and he didnt even know, his actions say more than what he thinks. he needs to think about that! ARGH your so STUPID.] he was like playing me.. in a way. and then she got her friend, and yadda yadda, that was it. then now he IMed me today telling me 'Why are you telling people i like you?' i said, 'where the hell did you get that, do you have proof' and he showed me my ex-xanga entry, it was like almost a month old, saying how he mightve liked me, and my love life is screwed blah blah blah, and i was like, wtf, dont come up to me when you dont know why you are saying that. and i got him confused and i blocked him, his girlfriend and him broke up like not too long ago, BUT they still like each other, shes cool and stuff, but i just HATE him, if i had one person to kill in this whole world, it will be HIM. i hope he rots, and gets fed to the bunnies all over the world. STFU, i HATE YOU, STUPiD FU_K FACE. THE END.

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convo with me and ej:

xtinetotherescue: read it?
IndependenT Pn0y: i did
xtinetotherescue: yeah
xtinetotherescue: but i couldve said more, but i didnt want to say too much
IndependenT Pn0y: oo
IndependenT Pn0y: daym u have hella drama
xtinetotherescue: yeah
xtinetotherescue: dude, i was so fukked up like this vacation
xtinetotherescue: like the beginning of it
xtinetotherescue: that guy totally messed up everything for me b4.
xtinetotherescue: and i STILL liked him after that.
xtinetotherescue: but now i hate him
xtinetotherescue: ARGH you dont know how much i want to strangle him
IndependenT Pn0y: daym wsup wit dis fool
xtinetotherescue: i know
xtinetotherescue: he PLAYED me
xtinetotherescue: while he had a girlfriend
xtinetotherescue: and they still were together
IndependenT Pn0y: wut a fukin fag
xtinetotherescue: but some other shit happened, but they didnt break up for this reason
xtinetotherescue: but they still 'love' each other, and they are prolly gonna get back
xtinetotherescue: im cool with her, and stuff, we talk, etc/
xtinetotherescue: but i just hate him
IndependenT Pn0y: oo
xtinetotherescue: ARGH i wanted to kill myself
xtinetotherescue: but i couldnt do that, for like 718950 reasons
xtinetotherescue: i know better
xtinetotherescue: but i just felt that way
IndependenT Pn0y: oo
xtinetotherescue: i thought everything was over for m
xtinetotherescue: e
xtinetotherescue: i would just always break down and cry my head off
IndependenT Pn0y: oo
xtinetotherescue: and i actuallly went to my cousins, to see HIM, and it turns out i only saw him for like 3 hours total.
xtinetotherescue: hes sooo fricken ugly
xtinetotherescue: i cant believe i liked him
xtinetotherescue: my cousin keeps telling stuff
xtinetotherescue: but i wouldnt listen
IndependenT Pn0y: oo
IndependenT Pn0y: daym
xtinetotherescue: yeah
xtinetotherescue: and whole nother shit happened when he told his girlfriend
xtinetotherescue: and she told her friend
xtinetotherescue: and started talking
xtinetotherescue: like, that isnt right, liking someone who already is taken
xtinetotherescue: blah blah she wouldnt shut up
xtinetotherescue: but they wouldnt understand me when i said, its all him.
IndependenT Pn0y: oo
xtinetotherescue: i thought he liked me, i think he did, but hes just denying everything
xtinetotherescue: so everything was a lie
xtinetotherescue: almost 2 months. wasted.
IndependenT Pn0y:
xtinetotherescue: or maybe 3
xtinetotherescue: i totally forgot that happened
xtinetotherescue: until he IMed me today
xtinetotherescue: and like i just had a flashback of everything
xtinetotherescue: everything at that time.
IndependenT Pn0y: oo daym dat sux
xtinetotherescue: i just sighed, closed my eyes, and took a deep breath
xtinetotherescue: and let my anger out to him
xtinetotherescue: then i blocked his ass, i dont want to hear form him ever again.
xtinetotherescue: if i do, i swear i will kill him
IndependenT Pn0y: i would kill sum1 who would do dat to a frend of mine
xtinetotherescue: BUT you dont understand what i went through
IndependenT Pn0y: even though i havent seen u in person b4 id still kill his ass
IndependenT Pn0y: yea i understand
xtinetotherescue: no its more than that
xtinetotherescue: im not saying half of it
IndependenT Pn0y: my frend went through sumthin similar to ur story
xtinetotherescue: the whole story that is.
xtinetotherescue: but thats just the main deal.
xtinetotherescue: its like going through hell.
xtinetotherescue: i never want any of my friends or myself going through that shit
xtinetotherescue: it really makes you depressed and hide away from everything
IndependenT Pn0y: oo
xtinetotherescue: i dont know how to explain what i went through, words cant describe it.
xtinetotherescue: its that bad.
IndependenT Pn0y: daym
IndependenT Pn0y: sumthin similar happened to one of mah best frends
xtinetotherescue: im just happy i didnt do anything to hurt myself.
xtinetotherescue: cause im really happy where im at right now.
xtinetotherescue: and i wouldnt be here, without people who listen.
xtinetotherescue: like you
IndependenT Pn0y:

p/s: thanks for being there. <3 i owe you! :)

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NOTE: if you actually read all of that, i owe you a huge hug and a kiss! *mwah, i love you!